Friday, January 6, 2017

Cherish what you have~

Written January 6, 2014 -

If you are married, go tell your spouse you love them! Things may be difficult right now, but it is a moment. Take a moment to remember why you are married in the first place. Remember those butterflies in your stomach at the very thought of them; those feelings that you couldn't possibly spend enough time together. You made a commitment, keep it. This world is full of things that will try to destroy your union. Don’t give in to the temptations tossed out there by the devil himself. Whatever is going on right now is temporary… good or bad. Embrace the difficulties, for in them there are opportunities for growth and strength to the marriage. If things are good, continue to pour into each other, for certain there will come challenges. Do not ever think it is ok to get chummy with a member of the opposite sex at work or anywhere else. It may begin innocently, but can be a great tool for the STUPID devil. You may think: They are so easy to talk to… They understand my struggles… They “get me”… If you are single, and they are single, GO FOR IT! If you have committed yourself in marriage: FORGET ABOUT IT!! Believe it or not your spouse “Gets you”~ You simply have to keep investing! If you have a bank account and don’t put any money into it, you are going to have NOTHING there to withdrawal.

 “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour” (1 Peter 5:8).

 Enjoy the now- Don’t worry about the future. Something will always be there to challenge the relationship, but if you dwell on that, it steals your joy today. Don’t let anything rob you of the beauty that can be enjoyed today, by worrying about tomorrow.

 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble” (Matthew 6:34).

 "You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore” (Psalm 16:11).

If tonight were to be my last~

If tonight were to be my last night, I would want my children to know how much I love them. Each one of them have brought so much joy into my life. I want them to know that I believe in them and that they are able to achieve all they set out to do.

If tonight were to be my last night, I would want my mother to know how much I love her and I'm thankful for the life that she poured into me through all these years. I wouldn't be half the woman I am without her.

If tonight were to be my last night, I would want my closest friends to know how much I cherish every minute that we've been friends. I'm thankful for all of the ups and downs that we've gone through. Thankful we've encouraged each other, and pushed each other along.  We've seen victories, and experienced defeat, and through it all have remained close. 

If tonight were to be my last night here, I would want my ex to know I'm thankful for the 17 years that we had together. While I hate the choices that were made, and how things turned out, I'll be forever grateful that I was able to experience the happiness that I had, and to have shared the celebration of the births of our four wonderful sons.

If tonight were to be my last night, I would want my church family to know how much they have impacted my life. Teaching me the basics, watching me grow, seeing me fall, helping me back up, encouraging me to press on, loving me, and running the race with me.  I would want those who encouraged me to use the gift that God gave me in my voice to know that they helped me to grow closer to the Lord as it is such a way to communicate with Him.

If tonight were to be my last night, I would want all to know that I'm in a better place. Because God gave His only Son to die on a cruel cross because of my sin, and took the punishment that was mine. Thankfully, because I chose to believe in Him, accepted Him as my Savior, and asked Him to live in my heart, I get to spend eternity with Him.

If tonight were to be my last night, don't cry for me. Live your lives in the freedom of God's gift of life through Jesus Christ.  

We do not know when our last day will be.  Tell your loved ones that you love them!

Friday, August 12, 2016

Anxiety and depression~

"Anxiety in the heart of man causes depression, But a good word makes it glad" (Proverbs 12:25).  Having dealt with (battled!) depression myself for a number of years (it still rears it's UGLY head sometimes), I understand how consuming it can be.  There are days when you think that you just can't handle it anymore; want to curl up in a dark corner and have it all stop (and I mean ALL!).  After being on it for three years, I am happy to say that I have been completely off medicine for the last six years.  (I am not ashamed to admit that I needed help.)  It is not without some bad days, but they are bearable days, and some days in need of talking to my best friend(s) to help pull me out so that I don't sink farther into it.  I am so thankful that Christ is in my life, and that He provides me the strength that I need, and lifts my head.  There are so many people that are afraid to address it, afraid to talk about it, think that it is shameful, or disgraceful.  It is real; just as real as if your eyesight was failing and you needed glasses, or if you had a heart condition and needed to take medicine.  If you know someone, or are someone who suffers from this, please don't be afraid to talk about it!  It is NOT shameful, it is NOT disgraceful...  I don't think God would have used the word depression in His Word if it was not something that we would have to face.

Thursday, July 28, 2016


The water and waves are crashing all around me; pulling me under.  Attempts are made to reach the shore, but the harder the fight, the fiercer the waves.  I am going under.  The shore is in sight and looks so lovely; the sun shining, the palm trees so tall and vibrant, yet the escape isn’t happening.  The water violently takes me under, tossing me in the cold waters, beating my body on the harsh ocean floor.  Panic has taken over. 

Monday, March 14, 2016

Keep going~

My closest friends know my struggles.  I'm not living the life that I dreamed, or imagined.  I know that I am in the hands of my God, I am living His plans, and know they are better than any I had . 

It doesn't mean that being a single parent of 4 boys (mostly without support from parent #2), going to bed alone every night, managing the household, finances, schedules, and day to day tasks don't get to me... stress me out... get me down...

So if you see a sad post, wonder about me, think I'm a downer, share too much... it's just life.  We all have struggles... some of us share them.  I'm real.  I hurt.

Some people cannot relate to my struggles, yet sadly, some can.  I hope that my posts are able to minister to at least one of them... ♡

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God" (2 Corinthians 1: 3-4).

Sunday, March 13, 2016


Are you F.A.T. ? Faithful, Available, and Teachable.

Faithful to the ministry that you are part of.  Not only when it is good for you, but wherever you're needed at the time.

Available to serve the on the team, ministry, or organization that you call yourself a part of.  Doing what is required/requested.  Again, not just when it is good for you, but whenever you are needed for the good of the team.

Teachable... Humbling yourself to the authority of another. Doing what is asked without question, or obstinance.

I aspire to be all of this and more. Lots of work to do. Pressing on.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Plain Red Cup~

November 10, 2015

If we knew what everyone stood for, believed in, and supported, and based our living on that, we would die… We would not shop here, or there, or take our children here or there, or, or, or…  We are in this world, but not of it. “If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you.  If you were of the world, the world would love its own.  Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you” (John 15: 18-19).  We do not have to support those who do not believe, but, if we are Christians, we do have to shine God’s light… the light that gives hope to a dying world.  “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.”(Matthew 5:16).

I once walked in darkness.  I am thankful for God’s grace, and the grace of His children who shared with me who He is, so that I can obtain this blessed hope!  “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light;  who once were not a people but are now the people of God, who had not obtained mercy but now have obtained mercy” (1 Peter 2:9-10).  “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead”(1 Peter 1:3).  God provides for us through people that do not know Him.  Our role here is not to condemn those who do not believe, but to live life in such a way that they see what we stand for, believe in, and support, and that they might see our good works and glorify… Our Father in Heaven… not us, not what we think is right, but glorify all that is right.  

We are quickly approaching the Christmas season.  Every day is Christmas to me, as His mercies are new every morning.  The gift of His birth, death, and most importantly, His resurrection is one that I am thankful for each and every day!  All that claim to know Him and call themselves His children should be.  I’m not better than anyone else in this world.  We are all sinners in need of a savior, some just don’t know it, or want it.  “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God”(Romans 3:23).  ALL… including me, and every human that exists, or has ever existed.  

Satan is a big fat liar, and is currently using a stupid red cup to cause division, and upset.  It’s a cup people.  The owner needs to see Jesus, not crazed people that call themselves Christians saying "my name is Merry Christmas” or any other negative action that is being taken.  My name is redeemed, and I am forever grateful for that!  I want to be salt, not ice water.  May the Lord open all of our eyes on how we can truly show His love, and stand up for Him, not what we think is right.  

As Christians, we know and value what Christmas is about.  The Bible doesn’t say Merry Christmas in it anywhere… It does say “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, goodwill towards men!” (Luke 2:14).  Our Jesus, our Savior, and salvation, was born in a dirty stable because there was no room for them in the inn…  I don’t think God is too concerned with the cups at Starbucks… He is concerned for the hearts, minds, and souls of all He has created though… Let’s be smart… Keeping Christ in Christmas should look a whole lot different, don’t you think?